The number of times I've listened and played the song is at least 10 times. I listened for the band arrangements, the beautiful piano introduction, the peaceful guitar solo, played it countless times during band prac, sound check and the actual service, but all I had done to the song was to do an injustice to it.

After all that has happened at home, I felt that I wasn't even qualified enough to be standing on stage. I had so much bitterness, unforgiveness, struggles and doubts about life, what makes anyone think that I'm fit to usher others into the presence of the Lord? In my 1.5 years of being in W&M, I experienced my worst final sound check on Sunday morning. I completely had no idea what noise was I making on the keyboard. My fingers couldn't coordinate, I couldn't deliver what Clement wanted, and the most painful thing was I had to convince myself I could do it for the Lord.

Hello, like smile and say that I'll happily serve the Lord when my inner world was in total chaos? I said my final prayer before the actual service and seriously hoped that the Lord will grant me grace. I think He did, the flow was a great improvement from prac, but deep down I knew I wasn't fine. And yes, my playing sucked big time, I could even feel it myself.

I watched the clip again moments ago. This time, I finally came to terms that I have to appreciate the words sung. What's the point of doing a song 10 times, when you don't bother about what the song is saying? I felt that the words just went in through one ear and left through the other. Out of all that was sung, how much of it have I actually done by leading an exemplary life?

I've already failed at the very first line: any crown I've ever worn I lay it down. And what about "in Your presence I live, and with all I have to give, I will worship You"? When will I ever learn, that I have to worship the almighty and holy God, above my circumstances?

Then I looked at all the people who were worshipping with the Hillsong team. How many of them really worship Him all the days of their lives, while how many would have walked out of the indoor stadium, feeling the constant 6-day emptiness and occasional spiritual boost on Sundays? They raise their hands in surrender, and when they are out of the place, will they do the same with every aspect of their life?

I'm not a holy christian or goody-two-shoes. Probably no one in this world will ever be qualified to be, not even the church leaders and pastors. But I urge you, watch the video, and tell the Lord how you really feel within, towards Him and towards people around you.

Until I do justice to this song, I'm not going to stop listening to it.